holiday....?

Yes..holiday is here....but it seems like I have just finished my last paper yesterday...and everyone seems to have disappeared....y is that so? It seems like today finished paper, today went back home. Why is that everyone so eager to go home? I want to go back to but I have to wait till Sun...which I don't mind. And because everyone went back so fast, it seems that I am left alone here...in Kampar, alone in the house and pass these 2 days alone. Hopefully by the time I went back, I won't be this lonely. I wish that there is someone who can accompany me here...and also when I'm back home. Its been a long time since I felt so lonely like this. Although there is the computer and the Internet to accompany me but I still feel lonely. It seems like there is someone missing in my life. Who is that someone? When will that someone gonna appear in my life? There is no one that can answer this question, even I, myself also cannot answer this question.

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Value

To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.
To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.
To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.
To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.
To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.
To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident.
To realize
The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics
Time waits for no one.
Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when
you can share it with someone special.
To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one.

Problems

Why is it that whenever I have problems, I don't have anywhere to turn to? Why is it that whenever problems occur, it will have to be during the critical times? Why can't the problems come after the critical times?? WHY?? Whys is it that every year, these problems will occur to me? Why can't these problems occur once and once only? Why must they come so many times? WHY??? Why does the problems come and when I want to find someone to listen to my problems, there isn't anyone around that I trust to listen to me? I really want to solve these problems all once and for all; sometimes I really cannot take it, and it makes me no mood to do anything the whole day. Why must it happens during this time? Why not other time??? After all my exams....people ask me not to think so much and just concentrate on what you're supposed to do...which is STUDY but whenever I'm alone, I'll start thinking about the problems. Sometimes, the problems just pop out of no where and there I goes again...thinking about those problems. I kept telling my gal fren not to think of her problems but I myself can't stop thinking about my problems. Why is that so?? I kept telling my fren all not to think and just concentrate on other things but I just can;t seems to keep my head straight. I tried to keep my head straight but when I'm alone, the problems will just pop out of my mind and I'll start thinking again....I'm afaraid that I may not able to withstand all this and I can just burst out....I did burst out once at my fren, but I controlled and luckily its not that strong. I don't know when I will burst out again and that time I don't know how will the consequences be. I'm really afraid.

What can I do

It seems that I have many to say but somehow I'm speechless when it's my turn to talk. Why is that so? It seems that I have many secrets that can or cannot be shared. It seems that I need someone to talk to but I can't find anyone to talk to. There is someone that I always share my secrets with but somehow that someone got quite busy and I have no where to turn to. Till now, my workload has increased and because of my personal things, I seems not able to concentrate on what I'm doing. I scare that if things go on like this, I will be mad soon. Is there anyway that I can release all my secrets without letting anyone else get hurt? Blogging may be the best choice but unfornately, it is not the best choice. Blogging will just make matters worse as I have told myself to forget what had happened today and pay attention to a brand new day tomorrow. But, as people always say, "Saying is always easier than doing". It is true as I stand by myself today, that whatever you said, may not be done by you. I'm hoping that I can really release all the stress in myself as I afraid that one day I'll burst and I don't want that day to happen as I have experienced before and I know the consequences of bursting all at once. It is not a good thing to do... What can I do????